Any one that has come to my house before 9 a.m. knows that Beans is not a morning person. She never has been. If we let her sleep and wake according to her clock she would be up until midnight and sleep until 10 or 11 the next morning. That’s her sleep pattern. It’s also a big part of why we wanted to homeschool her. Even when we can get her to fall asleep at a decent hour she’s still a bear in the mornings. Luckily for us it doesn’t last long. She’s all smiles by the time we’re loading up into the car. She’s all smiles after school when she climbs back into the car.
She loses it. She’s held it together all day. She’s in a safe environment to let it go. And she does. Big time. Screaming, crying, tears, biting, spitting, whining, hitting, kicking. It’s a full on two year old tantrum. Sometimes the car ride is calm but as soon as she walks through the front door she melts down. The length of the tantrum varies but usually it doesn’t last very long and then she’s our happy Beans again.
At first I worried that maybe she was being bullied at school or a teacher was mistreating her. I’ve put her to bed early and made sure she’s gotten plenty of rest. I’m still at a loss as to the cause – although I believe some of it does have to do with being tired but that Mommy sense says there’s something else going on too. I sat down and talked with her yesterday about how she feels at school and when she comes home. She melted into my chest, arms wrapped around me while silent tears slid down her face. We talked about what we can do to help her not feel so cranky. She’s going to try to hold it together in the car and when she gets home she will lay on our bed and listen to music and read some books until she feels calm. This afternoon will be the first attempt. I’m hoping that’s what she needs – some quiet down time.